I am 52, a mum of 3 estranged children from my divorce 7 years ago, remarried and happy with a man who shows me love and laughter every day.
I also have Multiple Sclerosis, this started as Relapsing Remitting but is now secondary progressive so a type of palliative care is about all I receive.
This disease has taken my mobility, messed with my mind, left me depressed, anxious and pessimistic.
I lost my family as I had an addiction 7 years ago, after much counselling, I came through the other side. Something I would never have done had I stayed where I was. I was in a rut, surrounded, but alone. Thats how it felt, all part of the twisted addiction.
Aside from hospital appointments, I dont leave my home, my joy was my garden but I cant even do that now. My eyesight is going, my hair is dropping out, my teeth are dropping out, I currently have a lump in my breast, have had one lump removed before, have had surgery for a collapsed lung and hey ho, such is life.
I am owned by Cats, two are standard British shorthairs, the other is a Maine Coon.
They rule both me and my husband and we love it.
So there you are thats me, boring, overweight, once ginger and vibrant, now faded and worn out.
This blog is brutally honest, truthful, and real, this is me below, I dont look like this now, I look what I am, worn out, exhausted and ill. Most of all very very sad.
Welcome to my world…..