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Hello there,

Let me first of all say I am nothing special, I am 51, a mother of 3 estranged children, married twice, with hobbies of gardening, photography and music, as in playing organ and piano.

I also have Multiple Sclerosis, this started as Relapsing Remitting but as it has advanced is now described as SPMS.  Which in layman’s terms means, we can do nothing for you other than give symptomatic treatment, pretty much the same as palliative care is.

This disease has taken my mobility, messed with my thought processes, made every day a struggle to stay awake as I am so fatigued, taken away the joy of doing my garden as I cannot stand, or walk for anything more than a few steps with the help of canes or a walker.  Any further distances have to be undertake in my wheelie.

Aside from hospital appointments, I dont leave my home, so my husband has been taking over my role in the garden as if nothing else looking at it, something I can do, is something that still gives me joy.

My eyesight is going, my hair is dropping out, my teeth are dropping out, I currently have a lump in my breast, have had one lump removed before, have had surgery for a collapsed lung and hey ho, such is life.

I am owned by two kittens, one is a standard British shorthair, the other is a Maine Coon.

They rule both me and my husband and we love it.

So there you are thats me, boring, overweight, once ginger and vibrant, now faded and worn out.

Welcome to my world…..

 

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6 thoughts on “A little about me

  1. We have some things in common– the estrangement thing most of all. You cannot change yesterday, but sister God didn’t die for you and give you the precious gift of reception for nothing. So take the gift and love as much as you can however you can. Welcome.

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      1. I completely understand. But I know in my case that I have actually made many improvements and strides. Can you make a list of your character traits years ago, faults and good points and then do the same today and see improvement for yourself? If so then you need to hold on to that fact. We are all products of circumstances and everything is not equal. As long as you are making progress on your faults and moving more toward the good side.

        As for the kids, I’ve come to realize that their journey is theirs and they may actually have a lot happening on the bad/fault side too. And for them, it is easy to blame parents and not deal with their own issues. I did cause them pain and I take responsibility all day long for it, but for them to continue to hold a grudge or want to hurt me does not bode well for their developing characters. It would be nice if they would show some sign here and there. My son does call and stop by, but it is only if he needs something.

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  2. I wanted to post a reply under the post “Busy Bee” but didn’t see a place to comment there. I loved the pictures of your flower gardens. What a beautiful sanctuary! You have an artistic gift when it comes to gardening. ❤ I'm sorry that you are not able to tend them yourself any longer. That has to be very difficult for you. I'm glad that your husband is willing to tend to them in your stead and follow your guidance. He sounds like a treasure! Have a blessed day! ❤

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